Burnout
I need to face facts, I'm incredibly burnt out.
I'm staring at blank pages and empty DAWs in all of my creative outlets. And as much as I'd like to blame my medication, that doesn't really make sense. And this is extra troubling because I'm about to start uni.
I know this happens, everyone warned me about it, said that if I pushed myself too hard for too long eventually I'd be running on empty. But I didn't listen. I pushed myself to always do more, all the time. For the past 3 years I haven't really truly stopped even once.
And I don't know how long I need. And that thought scares me. Because as tired as I am it feels as if the work is the only thing keeping me sane. I can't get any work done but I eagerly await the day when more work might come.
I don't know how to handle this. I know I need rest but I can't do that. Doing that might kill me. Besides it's not like I have a choice, I have more responsibilities than ever this year.
I wish I had more to say on the matter but that's that.
Thanks for giving me the time of day